Between friendship

Will people remember what is the good thing about u? Will people remember what is the bad thing about u? i tell u today, ppl normally will remember bad thing first.... there was one guy... my friend la.. but i not think he treat me as friend anymore....

first , i provide him the job.. teach him the process(normal promoter know wat to do ma only he dunno. suan leh i din care and still teach him) ... belanja him makan... go play together .. never count small money with him...

now jus becos of one issue.. i cant giv him job and take his project immediately.. he refuse to talk to me.. if he still say hai to me today.. then i will consider to give him back the project.. but he din do.. sorry la... is not my fault.. u jus remember bad thing about me.. not even think the gud thing i treat u be4... wat have u giv me be4? trouble .... suann leh .. like this friend is my fault? i jus get back the project for myself .. u cannot blame me....i write here becos i really can endure anymore..

wat oso gud it is not my fault... i already giv u many authority...u din help me .. still wan create me problem.. like tis o.. dun blame me...sumore personal issue.. ... u remember u say one word be4 .. i think u forget but i still remember..u say ' she will only treat me as friend' how can u so sure? i really can compare meh? it really hurt me.. u noe wat i wan . but still pour me cool
water..sorry la.. to many combination...

i will still treat u as friend d .. if u shake ur hand when u c me next time la.. if not jus suan le ba if u really so small gas then is ok for me..hope we can meet again in the real life society ....dunno who will read but jus thanks for reading

i should sad or angry....

not worth ?

Is the time to fill tis dot with some words....erm let me think wat i had done this few month.....

haiz... too many .. waste too many money.. waste to many time.. many effort jus for 4 alphabet-love

worth ... yes.. unless i gt no regret in my life... and i will cont to do it...u noe sacrifice ur money bt can bring happiness to family.. to the one u love.. is really happy.. u wont feel any lost..

last time i am $$ minded ppl.. the more u chase the money .. the faster it will leave u..haiz..even though now i still not expert in earning .. but i will still strive for it so hard.. even though i noe it is not really important..bt nvm la..

jus like her ignore me now.... dun feel down.. a ppl cant accept u does not means i fail...( even though maybe i really fail now) cos love is life long ...wont easily with one failure.... hehe..gambateh ..

for future and whole life...

Ok , i make decision!!

Today is the last 3 days before i end my roadshow,i feel so blur today, not becos i unhapy not becos i am lazy. i feel so energetic at the morning, jus becos of one reply... dun wan... suan leh .. i become so confuse so upset so so so... suan leh ..

Finally as a consequence, i giv wrong information to the customer, the fulltimer purposely call me ask wat i did... so guilty.. dunno how to thanks him.. yet hope the manager wont complain me .. haiz...

Now no choice , i choose to delay my SOA and do my 35days roadshow. first is for money purpose, secondly is for my future purpose.. no matter is future or money purpose .... is all about my happiness... my happiness is easy only for one purpose .. is live together happily wit my beloved and worry nothing about financial...wow ...such a crazy idea. ..think too much...

so i try to realize it now , do the crucial thing and neglect the sub point .. now i need to earn enough money to stable my financial status..secondly i need to pursuit another chance to further strength my degree. SOA is really a hard way to go.. not becos i dun have the interest.is becos i want to shorten the time... so i need to speed up the process... i can wait...but can she wait for me???haha... think too much really ... think think think..

SOA?

i might giv up SOA, so blur my thinking tis few days.. i love math so much ..but y i din study UTAR at first, as i was going to Binary at first.. is tat means tat i think i can earn more wit entrepreneur degree.. ya i really think tat...bt y last i choose back actuarial science???

it tat means i really love math? so i sacrifice binary for actuarial? i think yes at first ... bt after think and think the ans is no.. math is my strength... i jus like to apply it.. i din love it very much.. jus think tat actuarial science is one of the way to earn many money at the safe way.. bt is tat means i love money so much?

then i think and think.. if i love money y i am not taking financial? it might earn better than those who take actuarial and it is easier... then y i so stupid change from binary to utar ? haiz .. think back oso crazy... now think myself really crazy.. my decision to change from binary to utar is made in 3 days only... tat day after first time sing k in green box.... cant imagin can sing k with her.. so everything change......

i fight so hard for SOA, is jus to earn more money? no , i want to provide a better lifestyle...so i need money..tat is wat i think only..so for my dream n my love... so i might give up SOA and change to other field which is earn more ..... if i can find one... searching ... hope i can get it... sorry la SOA.. temporary i will still fight for it....

the more the deeper

deep in the heart
deep in the soul
deep in the body

My dream is deep
My love is deep
My career is deep

What is deep?
jus use our heart to seek ...

The beauty of Math

1) age calculation :
remember u c tis at d net before?

Age Calculation Tricks:
Step1: Multiply the first number of the age by 5. (If <10,>100, ex: 102, then take 10 as the first digit, 2 as the second one.)
Step2: Add 3 to the result.
Step3: Double the answer.
Step4: Add the second digit of the number with the result.Step5: Subtract 6 from it.
Answer: That is your age.

actuallly this is the concept of separate de 2 digit.. xy it separate 10x to 2( 5x+3)-6+y

2)any number
Step1: Think of any number.
Step2: Multiply the number you have thought with 3.
Step3: Add 45 with the result.
Step4: Double the result.
Step5: Divide the answer by 6.
Step6: Take away the number you have thought from the answer, that is, subtract the answer from the number you have thought.
answer:15

actually tis is concept of deduction (2(3x+45)/6)-x

3)
Sequential Inputs of 6
6 x 7 = 42
66 x 67 = 4422
666 x 667 = 444222
6666 x 6667 = 44442222
66666 x 66667 = 4444422222
666666 x 666667 = 444444222222
6666666 x 6666667 = 44444442222222
66666666 x 66666667 = 4444444422222222
666666666 x 666666667 = 444444444222222222

4) square the number
Ex: 47
Step1: Look for the nearest 10 boundary.3 from 47 to 50
Step2: Since we went up 3 to 50, now go down 3 from 47 to 44.
Step3: Now mentally multiply 44 x 50 = 2200 - 1st answer.
Step4: 47 is 3 away from the 10 boundary 50, Square 3 as 9 - 2nd answer.
Step5: Add the first and second answer, 2200 + 9

this is concept of sqr(a)=((x-a)+a)((x+a)-a)=(x-a)(x+a) +sqr(a)

5)guess again
q1) u noe sqr root? hehe (sqrroot(-1))^ 2009
q2) wat is d shape of 1-sin@?
q3) Wat is the largest number in trigonometry ? d answer is =infinity,bt wat is the possible symbol which will get infinity in trigometry ?
q4) i want to put the first of logarithm , d of area and limit (n->infinity) (1 + 1/n)n together
q5) last is combine 1110000 1100101 1101110 1100111 according to ascii system

then combine ans of q1 q2 q3 q4 q5 .. haha

Time to list down who ever help me!

When i was in my secondary school in Hin Hua high School, i remember tat i was a passive and inactive boy. That is not because i am really passive, my financial status make my personality change. Now i am no more yong long in Hin Hua , Today i wil list down every of my friend who help me .. hope i am nt miss out one...


Ong shi chang- those who help me most - provide partial of fund for my graduation vacation
- fetch me for many times( until i forget how many)
Xiao yi yun- provide partial of fund for my graduation vacation
Low su leng- provide partial of fund for my graduation vacation
Tan ee kai - fetch me here ,there ,back home for 7 times
Ang lien chong- fetch me for 4 times
Ng jia ji - fetch me for 2 times
Sia boon hong- fetch me for 1 time
low chin ling - fetch me for 6 times
Kuan ai seon- teach me new things

Lee yi jun - no need to say.. u noe about it.

so for everyone who help me , i could remember them and i hope i dun miss anyone, one day who need any aids could look for me.i will try my best to help u all . i am not totally financial indepent now , bt at least is almost indepent... so anyone need help could look for me ... haha

BAD HABBITS!!

Today i still work in Klang Parade.. i feel so boring .. so lonely... suddenly at the afternoon she appear and say bring her brother to buy handphone... even i am not sure she purposely come here or what.. but i feel extremely happy to see her here..

First she passed by me and a guy follow her at the back(cos i dunno who is the guy).. my heart suddenly feel so sad. it jus happen like tat without any control.. tat time i was serving a customer.. really want cry out almost.. luckily the customer din ask me wat happen to me..haha.. yo u cant continue like tis ..man .. i say to myself...

But when i noe tat he is her brother, i feel so glad and so happy,.. i dun care whether she is jus take her brother to buy phone or not, but she come to visit me.. tat is enough .. and i feel so happy and energetic.. later on i close 4 sales continously... haha..

Man , Wat happen to you...

Gal, wat u do to me...

hello, can u be conscious....

ya, i should not think...

right, do watever u need....

final, time will decide..

watever, jus happy today..

Happy Sad Angry jus for you !! worth or not worth?

Happy becos u come and fnd me .. becos you reply me ...
Sad becos i cant accompany you .. jus c you with other ..
Angry why i so nood and no humuor at all... y i cant give u funny ..
Worth becos u do reply ..
Not worth becos wat i do is too few ...


very short line... all my feeling is inside...
wat can i do if not waitng?
so just waiting !!

First Day in Hartamas!!

6 am Today i woke up
6.30am Going to Klang terminal
8.15am Reached kl central
9.30 am U83 only arrived and i going to Sri Hartamas
10.30am start working w0rking time ( sms thinking ...sms ... thinking ....)
1.00pm Lunch (makan nasi kandar)
2.00pm continue work
6.00pm break again hurray
7.00pm sms thinking haha
9.20 pm balik lo taking taxi
9.45 pm only get taxi cos me Rm10
10.00pm reach bank negera kena cheated i want go pasar seni
10.30pm walking from bank negera to pasar seni
11.15 pm reached klang
11.30 pm yeah rest my nest finally as wat tan told...hehe
hurray so happy one day look so simply .. but in the middle .... so boring so angry so tired so unsatisfy.. but i feel nothing if compare to the time i angry tat time.. tat time ( who my fren u should noe ) first time i angry ... . haha..tomorrow last day in Hartamas hurray !

Samsung promoter!!

Currently i am not working in Demo Power anymore because i found a new job, promoter for samsung product.. even though i dunno whether it is worth or not, but i noe i can learn new experience.. during this 3 months of semester break.. between money and experience.. i choose to sacrifice my industry training which i thought might be useless and some more i got no enough money to expense during this few months...

It is true that we need to use our hard earn money to do something valuable... my momentum today is not only one .. i dun only think for my future , i think for our future.. so i must work twice harder and be more powerful in this few years...

Sometimes love make us blind but it do bring us impact also .. sometime money create our momentum to fight but it do ease our action also.. so i am a greedy man.. honey, wealthy, healthy,happy all i also want ....

all in a sudden!!

Suddenly i feel lonely because i cant meet her now..
Suddenly i feel upset because result is nt so good...even gt improvement..

Suddenly i feel down because i dont know how many i can earn and how my future will become..

Suddenly i feel sad because i cant see my best friend anymore because he in Russia now..

Suddenly i feel worry because i dont know my dream to America will be realize or not.

Suddenly i feel anxious because i dont know my current career will help me or not?


Suddenly i feel i want to change ..but how ? change change change.. ok i change for u .. i will ...

My best fren is leaving Malaysia

Today, my best friend.. Yi Jun is leaving Malaysia.. He is going to Russia to continue his study.. suddenly feel so lonely.. dunno when will meet him again.. now become less people for me to tell my story.. hope he can achieve good career after come back from Russia.. everyone is going oversea.. i wish i can too..

Yi Jun here i wish you all the best and take care!!! i will post the certificate to you very soon .. after you tell me your adress :)

finish finally samsung promotion!

During this 13days of samsung promotion, i feel so happy , angry , sad , and all mixed feeling .. i lost 3 kg in this 13days..i lost one friend in this 13 days.. but i get one aspiration, i will never give up to wat i wnat... i am 100% loyal i can gurantee.. cos really nothing can affect my decision..

AT first few days.. i feel happy because so happy to work with lp and wk... but after 2 days.. i feel so sad.. becos kena rejected ... haiz... but nvm ...we stil friend..so i must let every thing be nature.. i take about 5 days to modify my feeling.. cos my love is not selfish..i think for her .. i suffer is ok.. but not her .. she want friend .. then jus friend.. but doesnt mean i give up..

later on, i feel angry.. cos i sense my friend .. is not a good man.. he is so lazy..ask him to work he keep talking .. to other is ok. he talk to her always.. me alone need work.. makan he and she go i alone work.. is ok for she to go at golden time.. but at least he not follow go ma... somemore his action is too weird.. not respect gal at all .. always want to makan taufu.. suck man .. .. i noe u ..well now.. not care that she is the one i like..

but soon i say to myself.. my love is noble... u should let time to decide.. so i dunno how long my promise can last.. but at least now.. i got a very strong desire to say....i will wait for you and change for you until the day you married...so now i will try all my best to change.. to built own tycoon emperor.. to be everything u demanded..

so as a consequence , i lose weight of worry too much, i lost fren becos he betray me and all is his fault.. and i got one aspiration to prove tat i am a loyal man.. one and the only one ... waiting for her..and can do everything to get my target..

Time time time...i need time

How do i feel today? Maybe i should relax.... relax.. i am so relax today...relax until dunno wat to do..relax until i feel not relax... dun too care about her i say... dun too care about her ... again i say... but still i care about her ...so i must relax... thanks xue zhen.. maybe i love her more than she like me...ya is the time .. the time to change.. and thanks some more angeline..what u guess about me are true...and i will really do that...no wonder u be my bosom.. but dun tell ppl o..haha...

Man's tears!!

Have i ever cry before? ya ..of cause i do ,especially when i was a kid. Let me recall, since i was 15 i never cry until now!! it is true, i believe that the world is cruel and realistic. Only the strongest will survive, if u cry , u will be defeated....

BUT really, i cry jus now! Why a girl can make me cry? She ignore me, she feel uneasy with me.. but i do nothing harm! love is nothing wrong.. the only thing i am wrong is i should not love her.. but That is impossible for me now... for those who know me.. i got be secretly in love with a girl.. but that is already a history and i never think that it is true...

But now, really lae peng.... she create me a headache, i dunno what to say about her , i cant imagine i lose her, the feeling is too strong and my love is so deep until i forget myself.. i dare to do many thing i never and not encouraged to do before.. i know measure ur size before u buy a shirt, i know my background, my financial is not good... we might be suffer if i cant find a new career.. but i dun care about it... i jus love her..

now the more i shown my care to her , the larger counterback i met... jus three day after i explain my feeling to her ... i cant sleep welll and always have a nightmare.. think that after this roadshow and she might 100% escape from me, my tears come out itself from my eyes.. cant type anymore...crying...

i noe be man...but ....

Endure.........

It is not hard for us to laugh.. It is easy for us to act... but now i understand... it is really hard for us to act in front of those we love...i try to act nothing is happen... erm .. it is quite successfull at the first day.. but when times go longer.. i start to feel suffer... it is not a easy job man... so i will let the time to decide....but i never say that i give up....and i never say tat i not love her anymore.. just let the times .. decide...very suffer.....

FREEZED!!

My friend tell me, yesterday is history....tomorrow is mystery... so we cant change the history or decide the mystery... but we have today ..now .. that is present... present is present .. wat u need to do is jus open it .. awating for it.. maybe i should learn it from him.. it is really good word...
Another gal give comment... dun feel sad if u not be accepted... because ur love still wit u..ya it stilll wit me.. and i hope one day her present will be my love..

namiaohorengkq!

A love story .. will it happen to me? dun dream man!

" An amazing Love Story]He met her on a party. She was sooutstanding, many guys chasing afterher, while he so normal, nobody paidattention to him. At the end of theparty, he invited her to have coffeewith him, she was surprised, but dueto being polite, she promised. Theysat in a nice coffee shop, he was toonervous to say anything, she feltuncomfortable, she thought, please,let me go home....Suddenly he asked thewaiter. "Would you please give mesome salt? I'd like to put it in mycoffee."Everybody stared at him, sostrange! His face turned red, butstill, he put the salt in his coffeeand drank it.She asked him curiously; why youhave this hobby? He replied: "When Iwas a little boy, I was living nearthe sea, I like playing in the sea, Icould feel the taste of the sea, justlike the taste of the salty coffee.Now every time I have the saltycoffee, I always think of mychildhood, think of my hometown, Imiss my hometown so much, I miss myparents who are still livingthere".While saying that tears filledhis eyes. She was deeply touched.That's his true feeling, from thebottom of his heart. A man who cantell out his homesickness, he must bea man who loves home, cares abouthome, has responsibility ofhome.Then, she also started to speak,spoke about her faraway hometown, herchildhood, her family. That was areally nice talk, also a beautifulbeginning of their story.They continued to date. Shefound that actually he was a man whomeets all her demands; he hadtolerance, was kind hearted, warm,careful. He was such a good person butshe almost missed him! Thanks to hissalty coffee!Then, the story was just likeevery beautiful love story , theprincess married to the prince, thenthey were living the happy life...And, everytime she made coffeefor him, she put some salt in thecoffee, as she knew that's the way heliked it.After 40 years, he passedaway, left her a letter whichsaid: "My dearest, please forgive me,forgive my whole life lie. This wasthe only lie I said to you---the saltycoffee. Remember the first time wedated? I was so nervous at that time,actually I wanted some sugar, but Isaid salt. It was hard for me tochange so I just went ahead.I neverthought that could be the start of ourcommunication! I tried to tell you thetruth many times in my life, but I wastoo afraid to do that, as I havepromised not to lie to you foranything..Now I'm dying, I afraid ofnothing so I tell you the truth: Idon't like the salty coffee, what astrange bad taste.. But I have had thesalty coffee for my whole life! SinceI knew you, I never feel sorry foranything I do for you. Having you withme is my biggest happiness for mywhole life. If I can live for thesecond time, still want to know youand have you for my whole life,eventhough I have to drink the saltycoffee again".Her tears made the lettertotally wet.Someday, someone asked her:what's the taste of salty coffee?It's sweet. She replied.Love is not 2 forget,but 2 forgive,not 2 c but 2 understand,not 2 hear but 2 listen,not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!Don't ever leave the one you love forthe one you like, because the one youlike will leave you for the one theylove."

i feel it is good to have a such date , but that is only happen in drama!! be realistic!

A second Chance

Petaling Jaya evangelical free church proudly presents..... A second chance.....

Even though i dont know what is the presentation about, but the title of the performance is really attractive and the flier's content caught my atention..

" love is patient ( i think i am patient enough awaiting for her, time is not the matter to restrict me)

love is kind ( whether is kind or not, unless there is not bad motive of my pure love)

it does not envy ( i am not sure i could do it or not, but i will try my best)

it does not boast ( sure i will do what as her demanded for, whether to keep it as secret or not , it is not the crucial point)

it is not proud ( for what i feel proud for if i am in love, i wil just feel happy and happy)

it is not rude ( i swear i never be rude to the only one i love.. as what i father did)

it is not self-seeking ( love is not to satisfy myself only, it is the issue of 2 people.. i truthly understand about it)

it is not easily angered ( i admit i am quite bad temper, but i can controll it easily if i wish to do so)

it keeps no record of wrong ( ya, it is true... i really notice that whatever she done is true and no bad things about her)

love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth ( i am sincere enough.. i never say lie to her)

it always protect, always trust , always hope and always perseveres ( i really do it, i believe in her , just hope her to happy, and never reduce my care to her)

love never fails ( i reallly wish it wont fail as what you said) "

paul of tarsus

this author of this rythms give me such inspiraition. Maybe i should go prepare for my exam better.. if not ... how could i pursuit my dreams..

Poor ?

Am i poor? Maybe yes ...until today...future..who knows? Among all my classmates,coursemates,and almost all of my workingmates, they are all richer than me... why could this happen..are they really rich? no, what i could say is their family richer than mine...

I am twenty today... i got new opinion about my life.. we strive for success and it is true.but we also need to awaiting for opportunity..in other word- means we need to be lucky enough also if we really want to achieve success..

let me list down who is richer than me now....
1) lai kok weng- he do his own business without depending on his family..even though i dont know where his modal come from , but i know he earns quite a lot now and could bear up the whole family including all fees , expenses, and all need..
2) wei xiang- my workmates who is 2 years younger than me , he is workaholic and even more than 2k monthly as a partime worker..really independent..any possible partime to earn cash, he will be involved..
3) yee li- a pretty girl which is also just in her 18 years old, together with her career as a dancer , a dancing teacher , and as a promoter.. she earn defintely more than me monthly..so she is rich..

Until today, really i just saw 3 persons who is really richer than me .. means with their hard earn money..what i comparing now is ourselves only, not included our family.... maybe this article might irritating some of my friends.. but dont angry what i am saying now is a truth.. you can change it by earn the money yourself so i am not necessary right.. just go and earn your fiirst gold..


A lonely birthday, she really forgeten my birthday..miss tan , how can you be so forgetfull..maybe i am still not a important people in you life.. one day i hope it will...

Based on my analyse i could conclude that actually i am not so poor if we compare invidually ..so it is possibe for me to overcome the others if i really have the wish to learn... Poor? Pull Off Ordinary Rate...and we become rich Reach In Cash Hill.

CANT HELP

She cant help me.. she ignore me..she try to escape from me..yet she still contact to me..but not clearly..so wat tis all resemble? If i dont like something.. sure i will dicuss all the thing face to face and make it clear enough..

Cant help.. no ppl will help you if you are unable to complete a task.. they wont give you a hand if you have no useful value for them.. how can u help urself if you cant help urself..?

now i really cannot differentiate what to do in my next plan.. should i change the ways i handle things? Or remain with the same mehtod until everything show a sequence..?

ok!! i will let my feeling and intuition to decide!!

24 hours no enough!!

6.00am : wake up and prepare myself
6.30am : headed to terminal to take bus
6.45am : waiting for her or jus taking the bus
7.45am : reach utar and study
2.00pm : finally finish study and home
3.45pm : after a few hard work , in my "bird nest " finally
4.00pm : take a nap, including sms makan ...
5.30pm : wake up , have a fast scan through every mail, blog, face book...
6.30pm : taking dinner ,bath
7.30pm: prepare for my tuition career, must teach my student something at least
8.20pm : going to teach tuition
9.45pm : home finally taking supper
10.30pm: online again chatting, searh for GK
12.00am: wah so late liao ,, havent do tutorial faster do....

hei how about prepare for exam?? haha..

1.00am :zzzz
one day 5 hours zzzz..no enough for me..haizzzz

PTPTN hope again!!

Again my ptptn application is being rejected. however, this time the officer admit that it is their fault and agreed to reprosess my application. That is not i want actually, i just wish that i could take the loan and my partime income is not as stable as i thought. So i really need the loan in case something undesirable happen.

Actually PTPTN could be considered as my crucial key to continue all my plan. First is my plan to start own career(maybe a small business) secondly is the way to find my beloved. No girl will like a beggar. if u really wish to have a girl friend, make sure at least u can earn...thirdly is backup for my future..

The journey to be a actuary is not as easy as i thought , it is something hard and not everyone can make it. I have the confidence, but not the ability. Instead i really fail in the middle, ptptn will assist me in other ways.. but my dream will never vanish!!20th of july 2012!! not signifacant but meaningful and agreement!

Here is wat i do this few days,, morning wait at terminal and wish to accompany her to utar..later study with wish but not spirit.. coming back with tired body and take a nap if there is posssible.. night tuition again..just like partime to cover my daily expenses. STUDY,MONEY,LOVE. all i want.. but can i do it? nobody know..

Feeling what?if problem occur?

Recently i had discover obstacles again in my life.. ptptn fail.. love journey might not get good response.. SOA paper is hard to pass.. however this time i feel happy and could look at it easily as i think myself become more independent..really as i am not nervous of doing something...haha
that is advise of my friend which really make me concious..never regret if u do something wrong.. if u do regret ..u will live in regret .. if u want correction... then u can get more and make the stituation a different..

first my ptptn failure will ease my normal planning to purchase car. however i think tat is not a matter as i could still implement my plan but just take a longer time.. tis is positively thinking method..

second is my love.. this is my first time love with real action.. i really serious about it.. i dont might take a long period.. as i know what is really suitable for a couple.. time and tolerant is really crucial and it is the vital point for the success...

third is my SOA.. it is my only way( until today la.. future dont know yet) to pursuit my dream to America..such a wild idea .. together with my bosom friend.. sure those who know me know who is she .. haha..i will try my best to pass it as i dont want to waste any money..

An unforgotable day

Yesterday was 7th of August, in chinese calender, it is 7th of JUly.. which is considered as reunion day for a pair of couple who love each other.. i had give her a present that day oso.. miss Tan , i dunno u know the meaning of the bracelet or not.. but i jus want to care about u..

This is my first time to give such present to a girl.. i havent tackle a girl before, and havent girl friend before.. but this time i dun want to waste any opportunity anymore.. it is easy to find girl who are beautiful.. to find girl who is beautiful and good in personality..it is really hard....

so i decide to let my heart to decide .. so only she will be able to give me those feeling of love.. it is comfortable even jus be near to her only..happy even jus have a look at her...miss her even not c her for a few days.. so i hope my braclet will give her healthy and happyness...hope she will enjoy it...

OMG! nt going to kampar! but might go to Setapak!!

From Kampar to Setapak.. it do not sound good.. both place are not suitable for me.. at least for now.. however Setapak is still better than Kampar la.. but it is still creating a lot of inconvenience to me.. for example, the living cost, whether want remain at klang or move into Kampar? Too many issue to cover..if not i will definitely remain at klang.. for many purposes..

For me, Utar is just a temporary place for me to upgrade myself.. my final vision is oversea.. that sound still a very far way from me.. it is true that we should go outside world and see when we are young!! so i would like say it is good to have a trip to other country..however now i still couldn't see any bright future infront of me!!

America, are man end reading idiot comic already? ya it is ...

Unbelievable but true!!

Recently as i mentioned in my recent blog..a girl call Siew Yee Li with is just at her 18 who fight so hard for her future. Unbelievable she treat me as bosom friend.. and i really wish just to befriend with her only..a very good friend..maybe i am lack of female best friend..sound impossible as the girl really quite pretty but i just want to treat her as friend.. a friend with same aspiration !!tat is her pic..

Just for this purpose , i started to plan for my future and i really hope i can make it..now i am taking a risky way with high expectation to get a great payback. SOA paper will be my only hope to assist me to pursuit my dreams. if not i have to give up ...but i havent think about it..

Lai Kok weng.. any friend i met in Utar.. this guy is experience enough to be my mentol..even though some other may say he seem bluffing...but i believe he is not..i can learn many thing from him ... wish we can get watever we want together.

Everything sound impossible..but i really wish i can make it! Namiaohorengkgeo !!!

meet with old workmates

Today i go to Jusco and meet with my old popular workmates.. xiang wei and kerry.. emm wat had change to them is .. kerry become fatter,,seem u need to keep fit.. and xiang wei become mature look but ur dark pouches is deep.. sleep earlier la...

eem one of them is stduying STPM now(kerry) and xiang wei is going to indonesia under JPA scholarships.. such an unbelievable... although i not knowing indonesia well..maybe this is her choice and wish her all the best and she is taking medic..i think it will provide her a good future too. At the other hand, kei go , fa jie, and other popular workmates remain working in popular too.life circumstances is nt changing much just the thinking way is differ..

For me, they remain the same and not chance at all. Their personalities way to think.. but i think i'm different.. there is no more gap for me.. anyone could be friend if you willing to take the first step...

just having a few hours chat and some game before we say goodbye to each other .. time is short but quite fun... hope can meet next time..

宇宙构想图

我的简单宇宙构想图，详细解释下回分晓。。。

happy work day!!

Since i work in demo power for half years, this week considered the happpiest week i ever had before. all my friend become team leader .and my current supervisor has upgrade to executive. that is a great news. that means now my friend is incharge in recruitment of new promoter. so hope he will find me a job everyweek.. actually can.. haha..Not only tat my another friend at other company already become partime supervisor too. tat means i got another spare tyre even though i lost my current job.. haha.. jus hope everything go fine..

This week , i further talk with a young girl.. her name is siew yee li..wah such a beautiful girl.. her aspiration further enhance my desire to pursuit my dreams.. Americca....she is jus a form five girl who just finished her spm.. to realize her dream to go America. she work as promoter at day time.. teaching dance at night time.. such a hardworking girl.. she is so friendly and beautiful. is not that really attract me.. her determination really strong.. hope what she said is true.. remember 20th july 2008.. after four years is our agreement to fly to america.. during tis period we will try our best to realize our dreams... hei siew yee li gambateh...

aiyo, currently dunno wat happen to miss tan ...watever, now i reallly have the wish to fight for the future.. hope my desire will last for a long time and help to realise my dream .. my next step is??? cannot post it first or it might not happen as i wish... if everything go well i definitely will go America....god bless me..namiaohorengegeo...

No need transfer to Utar in Kampar!!

Yesterday i received a news that current the degree i am enrolling now will differ with its original... that means i can stay in pj for 3 years and finish my degree here.. regarding to this announcement, i feel so happy as i no need to replan for my career in kampar.. now i can keep going with my old plan and new plan... the are so many benefit to stay in kampar..

1) i wish to continue with my currently career as partimer......
2) i hope i can start to do my new business if i collect enough modal......
3) i really want to have a own purchase car ....
4) i am anxious to take soa exam asap if i am in klang...
lastly she is here, haha......

Not going to kampar... is totally a new life for me. hope everything wil be fine. really. enough obstacles for me ok? haha......

how come i feel normal?

at 26 th of June, i had give her a present.. a normal self-made circuit with words" u = my love", tat is considered a special day in my life.. tat is the first time i give a gift to a girl. first in my life...tat is the first time i take the action....
however, after i give it to her.. i am no more sure whether she will continue to fren wit me or nt.. normaly tis will lead to two result.. first is together, second is break... however i want the third result even not together oso nt break la ...
until now i still dunno what she think... many people have tell me wat kind of person is she... especially from those guys advise.. how they think about her ...tat is all negative reason with ease my wish to befriend wit her.. " they said, she is good friend but not partners" .. i disagree jus for no reason..
now i am not sure., maybe she is a friend... really jus a friend ..want give up or continue...emm let my feeling to decide...n c wat is her response...

On the way

now i am on the way to stable my study.. i am going to become yong long choo in secondary ...
now i am on the way to pursuit my career.. i am accumulating my experience in different field..
now i am on the way to seek for my love.. i am going to take action within a week.....
now i am on the way to make my self stronger .. i try to widen my perpective from all the ways...

but y u always block me on the way?? i will make u my slave one day.. money..

UNBELIEVEABLE !

I AM ANGRY !! I AM SAD! I AM FRUSTRATED!! EVERYONE SEEM COULD LEAD THEIR LIFE SO EASY .. Y IT IS NOT ME?

THE MORE U EXPECTED !! THE MORE U UNEXPECTED!! THE MORE U COMPLAIN!! THE MORE U DIDNT!! THE MORE U READ!! THE MORE U NO READ!!

EASY RIGHT ? IT IS NOT EASY !!

Mathematic must make money ma?

I found that i love math very much recently...however i dont know that i can really make money with mathematic as it seen not contribute a lot of cash generation..
here some funny story:

Q: How does one insult a mathematician?
A: You say: "Your brain is smaller than any

ε > 0"

An engineer thinks that his equations are an approximation to reality.
A physicist thinks reality is an approximation to his equations.
A mathematician doesn't care.

wat u say to ur honey through math..

1. Honey, you're sweeter than 3.14
2. I'm not trying to be obtuse, but you're acute girl.
3. You and I would add up better than a Riemann sum.
4. I'll love you from here to infinity
5. You fascinate me more then the Fundamental Theorem of Calculus.
6. Are you a differential function? Because I'd like to be tangent to your curves!
7. I am equivalent to the Empty Set when you aren't with me.

want know who is my honey ? solve x, y and z...

1) x={sin[tan-1(sin@/cos@)]/cos[tan-1(sin@/cos@)]} /@

(@ considered as variable too)

2) y=((l+a)^2)e - (l+a)(l-a)e- 2e(a^2)

3) z= {(p-1)(e-1)+(p+e)][(n+1)(g-1)+(n-g)]+[1+ep-gn]

so she is x y z

guess it?? haha ,, it is quite easy!!

Satisfactory in Calculus class !!

After i start my new semester in UTAR, i am no more like the last semester....i want to fight to for the examination... Whatever i do i to become choo yong long in secondary school..wahaha but now i prefer yong long choo ( dragan ball) the heart of dragon ...

i solve a question which all my coursemates in my tutorial think that it is hard to solve.. further more i also find a few ways to solve the integration problem with my own ways.. it is not in the text book .. but it is accpetable and faster .... wow so happy today,.. i hope this stituation will last for a longer period.. hope so.... may be now my friend will think y i suddenly become a solo man now... but i want to emphasize tat i am not tat kind of person.. it is because i got no time to use unless i get my ptptn ..

and now i wish to start my action to tackle....wahaha..slow and steady..start all my planning in time..start 3 2 1 0 loading..........................

what is love?

In the past , i am very sure about it.. love is when you think for the person from the all time and do whatever for her...(That is first sight love)

now , i am no more sure about it.... is care for one ppl is love or think for one ppl? since i study in UTAR i am no more think about it...but now i need to revise it as suddenly i feel lose in myself..i can sure about my real feeling...

one is i really care for her... i dun want her to get hurt and always be happy... one is i always think for her.. just wish to see her....which is love actually or i like them both? however i cant do anything with them now because it will conflict with my main principle: never tackle a girl when before you have financial ability...

i care and think both of u .. but now i noe u are actually the same person.. financial ability will be my problem now.... i hope i will handle it asap..maybe this month or maybe next month ...who knows? then i will take action beyond my principle..wahaha such an idiot who think too many ... but idiot who think more is better than lunatic than cant think..

华文！

谈起它，我可是有大约整年没用到了。母语是我视为最重要的语言，没了它就是失去了自我。。没了自己的根。现在的我不断学英语，并非我不再需要母语了，而是我需要英语来完成我的人生大计。最终的我仍然有把母语发扬光大的理念！！ 就如我暂时放弃爱情，并非我不需要它, 其中的概念就和母语一模一样。
笔法有些生疏了，对于字眼的应用也有些陌生。不过，陌生使我更有好奇心与征服心，它将推动我去达标。等待也许是痛苦； 我却更加得踌躇； 陈年往事难清除； 丽人小妞心中住； 萍踪寄语在哪处？

算了吧！ 有机会才继续发挥更好的华文作品吧！！

I wish i am wrong.. i hope it is not true..

Recently i met back a few of my classmates who is still study locally( maybe temporary gua).. however, the passionate between us is all gone. i try to speak to them but seem they try to avoid me.. maybe i am too sensitive.. or i might create u all misunderstanding.. y the feeling at the past is all vanished? or just becos i am not able to finish my study in prestigious university? or wat else?? i wont borrow a cent from you all. dun avoid me because i am poor.. seriuosly.. i want to become better than u all wit my own skill... without any financial from family... this is aspiration ... this is dream .. maybe it will come true or maybe it wont.. who know? so........... diao me a little bit la nextime u all see me...
Remember le.. i am yong long forever... i wont cheat u all ...

A WEEK LEFT!

Next week , my new semester in UTAR is going to start. My actuarial career might be in halt if i cant overcome my financial critical.. My ptptn loan being postpone again.. my parents contribute all their income in our daily expenses and my brother studies.. i am 20 this year.. i dont want to be the burden of my parents anymore.. but earn 3k before 7th of June is really a big problem for me who just a partimer.. my working salary considered high but still not enough as the time provided to prepare the cash is too short..

Different from my friends who have strong financial support from parents, can i make it? how to earn 3k in 14days? emm.. this really make me in trouble.. who wish to borrow, why all scholarships are priority to fresh graduated students..

Where is my lucky star? huh, nvm, fight for it. i can make it.... my friends lets us fight together..i will prove it... TTTTTTTTT (Tyrone Travel Through Thick Timber To Transfrom To Tycoon)

A valid, real, true and cruel reason..

Today is the marathon in Hin Hua high school... tat is my secondary school.. i learn many thing from there!!i just want to participate in the competition with no expectation.. as i think before..

i cant use all my strength in the competition as something more important is waiting for me..tat is my career.. i need to work after the competition.. as a promoter , i need to stand for almost 8 hours per day to get my wages..how can i exhaust in the marathon.. this may seem something to console myself seem i just get second in the competition but it is true... for me.. i can run better faster.. but i cant... becos too many issue to consider about..i cant work if i am too tired.. then no money .. then no expenditure..no future.....
this is me.. this is my life.. like wat happen in my study.. i want to get better degree.. but.. samething happen.. too many issue to consider.. i got feel to another gal.. some might noe who is she.. but still remaining the same.. too many thing to consider... y this phenomenon always happen to me...??

is that a good thing? or d opposite side?
i noe..... tat is 9ts..

again and again!!

This is our government.. and this is Malaysia..Malaysia boleh.. Malaysian can do anything......

I have been started to apply for ptptpn loan since april in 2007..

i have make 2 cancellation of ptptn because of the internal technical which is not my fault..

and i have summit the application form as many as 4 times and one time online application....

today i go to repeat the same thing again..

this time is they say they did not receive my letter of cancellation so cannot create new account for me.......

i apply the new loan as i am currently in UTAR ......

when will this critical over??? dunno.. but i will wait it patiently.. dun worry .. everything will be gone....soon...maybe...

story of Ts

Teen- there is around the world!
tyro -most of them are teen!
Tyrone- is one of the tyro!!
Think -what tyrone do always!
Team -think to form it!
Triumph- the result after teamwork!
Top -the consequence of triumph!
Tea ais -actually it is top !!

Look! carefully!!

Timing-good timing will lead to better results..
Action-an effort will only harvest if we do take real action..
News-it is your resources to keep you updated

Lead -a guider takes all the benefit first..
Aim - focus properly to avoid mistake
Evolvement -become bigger and achieve higher aspirations

Peace-keep calm in your heart anytime
Energy -to make you continue your daily routine
Noob -sometimes enable you to learn more
God- i will become it if i have her heart!!

older and and later

In the past, i would like to study rather than taking nonsense..now i choose to chat...
In the past, i feel the world is fair and flat.. what u have done will bring u d same consequence..
now, wat u have done is nothing , is the matter of how u do it...
In the past,i think tat friends may sometimes fake.... now i think we all are truthfull guys and gal if u can master urself...
In the past, sw do touch my heart.. now dun noe where come a lp interupt my life....
In the past, money is everything ....now master is everthing... n i still like "m" there are 4 m in my life master marry money member..
In the just happened past, you have read my blog.... now is the time to give feedback.. wow

PC fair at KLCC

I went 2 KlCC wit my best friend 2day.. v have nt been meet 4 a long time since last year..However, nothing will affect our relationship even though I have meet so many cruel evidence in d real life... 4 me, he is still remaining d same.. haha...

After preparation(actually v jus buy ticket only), v start our journey to d fair..1.5 hour was consumed be4 we reached our destination..chit chating ...for all d time.... #

#!@$#! so many 2 talk...yeah finally reached...

Wow, tat is quite a lot of ppl .. but normally is also d same la ... nothing 2 so excited about it....jus like wat ppl mention there are so many section and different hall in conventional centre...

i bought a SCANDISK pendrive once i entered the hall.. becos i put my Scandisk pendrive into washing machine be4 and it still work.. so i believe its quality and warranty....

After an hour we go 2 take our lunch..as we jus pass by the hall by a glance..our lunch is chesse rice wit sarsi...be4 tat we also take some picture.

I could only describe my feeling as happy 2day.. happy as i could meet back my friend..however the only thing i regreted is some ppl is working 2day and cant come 2gether wit me..haiz but nextime will be better....