Sunday, September 28, 2008

Time time time...i need time


How do i feel today? Maybe i should relax.... relax.. i am so relax today...relax until dunno wat to do..relax until i feel not relax... dun too care about her i say... dun too care about her ... again i say... but still i care about her ...so i must relax... thanks xue zhen.. maybe i love her more than she like me...ya is the time .. the time to change.. and thanks some more angeline..what u guess about me are true...and i will really do that...no wonder u be my bosom.. but dun tell ppl o..haha...

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Man's tears!!

Have i ever cry before? ya ..of cause i do ,especially when i was a kid. Let me recall, since i was 15 i never cry until now!! it is true, i believe that the world is cruel and realistic. Only the strongest will survive, if u cry , u will be defeated....


BUT really, i cry jus now! Why a girl can make me cry? She ignore me, she feel uneasy with me.. but i do nothing harm! love is nothing wrong.. the only thing i am wrong is i should not love her.. but That is impossible for me now... for those who know me.. i got be secretly in love with a girl.. but that is already a history and i never think that it is true...


But now, really lae peng.... she create me a headache, i dunno what to say about her , i cant imagine i lose her, the feeling is too strong and my love is so deep until i forget myself.. i dare to do many thing i never and not encouraged to do before.. i know measure ur size before u buy a shirt, i know my background, my financial is not good... we might be suffer if i cant find a new career.. but i dun care about it... i jus love her..


now the more i shown my care to her , the larger counterback i met... jus three day after i explain my feeling to her ... i cant sleep welll and always have a nightmare.. think that after this roadshow and she might 100% escape from me, my tears come out itself from my eyes.. cant type anymore...crying...



i noe be man...but ....

Friday, September 26, 2008

Endure.........






It is not hard for us to laugh.. It is easy for us to act... but now i understand... it is really hard for us to act in front of those we love...i try to act nothing is happen... erm .. it is quite successfull at the first day.. but when times go longer.. i start to feel suffer... it is not a easy job man... so i will let the time to decide....but i never say that i give up....and i never say tat i not love her anymore.. just let the times .. decide...very suffer.....


Wednesday, September 24, 2008

FREEZED!!

My friend tell me, yesterday is history....tomorrow is mystery... so we cant change the history or decide the mystery... but we have today ..now .. that is present... present is present .. wat u need to do is jus open it .. awating for it.. maybe i should learn it from him.. it is really good word...
Another gal give comment... dun feel sad if u not be accepted... because ur love still wit u..ya it stilll wit me.. and i hope one day her present will be my love..

namiaohorengkq!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

A love story .. will it happen to me? dun dream man!

" An amazing Love Story]He met her on a party. She was sooutstanding, many guys chasing afterher, while he so normal, nobody paidattention to him. At the end of theparty, he invited her to have coffeewith him, she was surprised, but dueto being polite, she promised. Theysat in a nice coffee shop, he was toonervous to say anything, she feltuncomfortable, she thought, please,let me go home....Suddenly he asked thewaiter. "Would you please give mesome salt? I'd like to put it in mycoffee."Everybody stared at him, sostrange! His face turned red, butstill, he put the salt in his coffeeand drank it.She asked him curiously; why youhave this hobby? He replied: "When Iwas a little boy, I was living nearthe sea, I like playing in the sea, Icould feel the taste of the sea, justlike the taste of the salty coffee.Now every time I have the saltycoffee, I always think of mychildhood, think of my hometown, Imiss my hometown so much, I miss myparents who are still livingthere".While saying that tears filledhis eyes. She was deeply touched.That's his true feeling, from thebottom of his heart. A man who cantell out his homesickness, he must bea man who loves home, cares abouthome, has responsibility ofhome.Then, she also started to speak,spoke about her faraway hometown, herchildhood, her family. That was areally nice talk, also a beautifulbeginning of their story.They continued to date. Shefound that actually he was a man whomeets all her demands; he hadtolerance, was kind hearted, warm,careful. He was such a good person butshe almost missed him! Thanks to hissalty coffee!Then, the story was just likeevery beautiful love story , theprincess married to the prince, thenthey were living the happy life...And, everytime she made coffeefor him, she put some salt in thecoffee, as she knew that's the way heliked it.After 40 years, he passedaway, left her a letter whichsaid: "My dearest, please forgive me,forgive my whole life lie. This wasthe only lie I said to you---the saltycoffee. Remember the first time wedated? I was so nervous at that time,actually I wanted some sugar, but Isaid salt. It was hard for me tochange so I just went ahead.I neverthought that could be the start of ourcommunication! I tried to tell you thetruth many times in my life, but I wastoo afraid to do that, as I havepromised not to lie to you foranything..Now I'm dying, I afraid ofnothing so I tell you the truth: Idon't like the salty coffee, what astrange bad taste.. But I have had thesalty coffee for my whole life! SinceI knew you, I never feel sorry foranything I do for you. Having you withme is my biggest happiness for mywhole life. If I can live for thesecond time, still want to know youand have you for my whole life,eventhough I have to drink the saltycoffee again".Her tears made the lettertotally wet.Someday, someone asked her:what's the taste of salty coffee?It's sweet. She replied.Love is not 2 forget,but 2 forgive,not 2 c but 2 understand,not 2 hear but 2 listen,not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!Don't ever leave the one you love forthe one you like, because the one youlike will leave you for the one theylove."

i feel it is good to have a such date , but that is only happen in drama!! be realistic!

Saturday, September 6, 2008

A second Chance


Petaling Jaya evangelical free church proudly presents..... A second chance.....


Even though i dont know what is the presentation about, but the title of the performance is really attractive and the flier's content caught my atention..

" love is patient ( i think i am patient enough awaiting for her, time is not the matter to restrict me)

love is kind ( whether is kind or not, unless there is not bad motive of my pure love)

it does not envy ( i am not sure i could do it or not, but i will try my best)

it does not boast ( sure i will do what as her demanded for, whether to keep it as secret or not , it is not the crucial point)

it is not proud ( for what i feel proud for if i am in love, i wil just feel happy and happy)

it is not rude ( i swear i never be rude to the only one i love.. as what i father did)

it is not self-seeking ( love is not to satisfy myself only, it is the issue of 2 people.. i truthly understand about it)

it is not easily angered ( i admit i am quite bad temper, but i can controll it easily if i wish to do so)

it keeps no record of wrong ( ya, it is true... i really notice that whatever she done is true and no bad things about her)

love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth ( i am sincere enough.. i never say lie to her)

it always protect, always trust , always hope and always perseveres ( i really do it, i believe in her , just hope her to happy, and never reduce my care to her)

love never fails ( i reallly wish it wont fail as what you said) "


paul of tarsus



this author of this rythms give me such inspiraition. Maybe i should go prepare for my exam better.. if not ... how could i pursuit my dreams..

Friday, September 5, 2008

Poor ?

Am i poor? Maybe yes ...until today...future..who knows? Among all my classmates,coursemates,and almost all of my workingmates, they are all richer than me... why could this happen..are they really rich? no, what i could say is their family richer than mine...

I am twenty today... i got new opinion about my life.. we strive for success and it is true.but we also need to awaiting for opportunity..in other word- means we need to be lucky enough also if we really want to achieve success..

let me list down who is richer than me now....
1) lai kok weng- he do his own business without depending on his family..even though i dont know where his modal come from , but i know he earns quite a lot now and could bear up the whole family including all fees , expenses, and all need..
2) wei xiang- my workmates who is 2 years younger than me , he is workaholic and even more than 2k monthly as a partime worker..really independent..any possible partime to earn cash, he will be involved..
3) yee li- a pretty girl which is also just in her 18 years old, together with her career as a dancer , a dancing teacher , and as a promoter.. she earn defintely more than me monthly..so she is rich..

Until today, really i just saw 3 persons who is really richer than me .. means with their hard earn money..what i comparing now is ourselves only, not included our family.... maybe this article might irritating some of my friends.. but dont angry what i am saying now is a truth.. you can change it by earn the money yourself so i am not necessary right.. just go and earn your fiirst gold..


A lonely birthday, she really forgeten my birthday..miss tan , how can you be so forgetfull..maybe i am still not a important people in you life.. one day i hope it will...

Based on my analyse i could conclude that actually i am not so poor if we compare invidually ..so it is possibe for me to overcome the others if i really have the wish to learn... Poor? Pull Off Ordinary Rate...and we become rich Reach In Cash Hill.