unhappy...

Now i become more approaching graduation ,feel like being dumped into a big deep hole. cant tolerate with my passive emotion and let them mastered my mind just with no fight back. Jesus born in Mafia will become gangster when he grown up.. that is how environment influence a person.. only one thing is struggle me now .. that is $$ .. maybe some argument like i am eventually a miser or greedy man.. but i know it very well.. i'm not! i just a guy who eager for better life without worrying about financial problem.

i cant say that i am not a positive person .. just merely behave positive, that why i still being able to study and work... so i am happy and grateful actually.. wahaha... just to release unhappy feeling to let my self-recover system operate again....@_@

What to do?

Just knew that my result drop to 1.5.. ... next semester onward no more ptptn loan.. haiz.. this time really need to earn depend myself... why my result will drop so obviously ? actually no buddy to be blamed.. just no motivation enough.. haiz..

So what can i do now? might can graduated on time gua.. just money problem... wahaha.. will I being defeated this time ? dun know , my life is full of challenge.. my life is really hard.. why I cant enjoy easiness? Nevermind.. start now, really cannot waste a single minutes..

Stressful , painful , all negative feeling fulfil my heart, but.. as my idiom, attitude will change u .. remember.. must have good attitude, process is not important , the result everything... now i still in the process.....

+U

Dont think i am foolish..

this semester i result drop like hell.. now i already understand the feeling of people whose result are not so good... actually it just like feeling of temporary only.. just like you taking an injection., ouch it is pain from skin to heart.. but after that you will be fine again...

this semester my concentration and memorizing ability gone away.. cant concentrate in class .. like day dreaming...haiz... no wonder cant do many things...

this semester i am over kind.. i help people, treat people, but dont think i am foolish .. so bad.. when you are kind.. people like to take opportunity on you.. but once is once. i wont be foolished..now i find that realistic people is sometime good...

A kind people always bullied.. so be smart.. i wrote here because i think not many people will read my blog... haha. now i still owe few people something.. that is some of my secondary friend...without them i cant enjoy many fun during my last year in HIn HUA.. i will repay them in term of other .. not monetary.. as it is more precious..

Inside my life until now.. there are two girl. except my mum la.. haha.. they make me so suffer and down but it is over.lesson is to make me grow.. i wont angry but motivated. first is tsw. . that happen during my secondary school... i feel nervous when talk and look at this gal.. i assume it is love , so i am too passive and too rush.. now she totally dislike me.. even not contact with me..but i realize now i am not loving her..just like her .. i think.. because i nervous but i wont care her..

until 2007.. tlp.. a girl who make me really care and sacrifice my one year in binary.. haha... (if not i will graduated in next 2 month..) again. i am too high profile.. make her total alienated me now.. haha. but ok la.. at least stil can contact... 2 cases. almost the same type.. but why response is different.. the answer is the family background..

here i just express my feeling ..not hurting or criticizing anyone or anyside..

guys from upper level of family usually are proud of them selves, if they find that the background with their friend exist a big gap.. then they wont mix with them..

guys from lower level of family are easier to communicate..they wont so " lan si " or not friendly..because they now relation is quite important. ..

of course there are counter example among my assumpti0m.. some of my friends are also rich.. but they are friendly also.. but most of the people i meet la..haha.. nextime ba.. take time to complain.. haha ..

Finance or Insurance.....

Now inside my mind.. very very blur.. i should continue on financial career or insurance career?


SOA PAPER OR CFP... PAPER??

I Know after i take SOA , if passed , it would be very high significant. . but is that really can earn alot? that make me stun now.. i am not sure that i would let myself stay in the office for the whole day, dealing with some paperwork... calculation.. i think i cant stand for it.. so i really doubt whether SOA career suit me or not.. for interest ,, sure good, because i really like to count...
but . for monetary purpose.. it is not so p0sitive... so thinking.. the pitch would be on 9 of July. . if i fail in the exam . then i would be really sure that .. acturial field is not my bowl of rice... i will be really sure that .. i need an alternative .. so .. after 9th of JULY , i can tell everyone what am i doing now.. hehe .. hope that day faster come and pass..

Return... From sabah...

After a 5 days trip , i find that my pocket going to empty.. really first time expense so many in my life time

18th may- i reached lcct at night side wait till 5 am only got flight.. doing nothing just go to Tune Hotel online. . later .. the flight is on... first time take a flight .. so excited and the feel also strange..

when reached Sabah.. so hungry..go to eat Char xiu rice. wah so expensive rm6. then i realize that new few days i will having such life..then we go to an island and snorkeling.. am i considered snorkelling oso ? maybe gua.. later we back to Tune hotel and ate mamak at night. so fast one day ll..

19th may- yes go climb kk mountain.. manage to reach 4 km.. cannot up somemore cos need time and $ .. climb mountain is so easy for me.. haha. so proud.. when go down .. i use run down the mountain.. can imagine? this technique i learn from my coursemate princeton.. he jump so fast i also follow his step and jump down lol.. really can use " jump down " technique when u down kk mountain.. 1 hour `15 minutes can reach bottom .. very easy.. very satisfied today..

eventhough tired..

20th may- headed to sandakan.. waste half day . lucky still can try local food wan tan mee.. so luxury the food.. yummy..at night side .. to makan " sea food" normal type.. haha.. at nite site.. we go beachside yam cha.. finally see a gal who consider " ok" in sabah.. walao..sabah really few few rare rare leng lui...

21 th may- go eat local food .. " pei tan gao" . later go see orang hutan.. then go temple.. then back lol. another half day in car...

22th may- eat last breakfast at sabah... then go to airport...

the largest gain in my sabah trip manage to go kk mountain.. the largest lost in my trip..

i lost my digital camera... so sadddss all my memory passed with that camera.. is time to change really... not worth not worth..

love?

A man will pay 2$ for a 1$ item that he needs.
A woman will pay 1$ for a 2$ item that she doesn't need.
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting she won't change, and she does.

have a fun time.....

OCBC !!

March 1--- i make a strong decision..after comparing ING, AM bank, AIA and OCBC... i choose OCBC finally

March 14-- i go to take that OCBC banker exam.. hope can pass... hope i will do wan i hope asap..

March 21--got some cases.. but not so good.. i just tell all ppl i known that i pass that exam

March 28-- got my name card finally... Eric.. i just want compare..

April 1-- Approaching some one birthday..i cant do anything.. because promise is a promise

April 11-- so sad for whole day.. exam test result oso did it badly.. yong long ah... yong long

April 18-- 2 more cases might ready..gambateh....

i found a house at setapak..

today i went to setapak... booking a room to rent..rm 170 per month ..considered economic price..under recommendation of a ppl i wish to thanks the most..Mr Sam.. this kind of man..is called responsible and powerful... he can accomplished wat ppl demand in a short period... i want to become like him... a first step out of original yong long..

21 years old this year, what kind of achievement i did?..none..so sad...dunno got ppl look down at me or not.... i wish there is...i am really unwilling to shift out...means i can only go back once a week.. so sad..how about my career? still can cont..hehe...

just struggling wheteher still want to take SOA paper or not... seem worthless... what should i do leh?

alamak...lost control..

sei fo, again my envy and jealoustiy make me feel imbalance...haha..not serious la..i wont go and kill the guy..but i must be better than him...just normal thing...sure you all will feel uneasy when you saw your real beloved treat other guy better than you...but i am not that kind of narrow-minded people... i must proved that i am better.. yeah! this kind of thinking will create me more encouragement to strive ... you know who am i .. 荣龙。
where goes my secondary schoolmates? is the time to call them out to have some talk ..hehe..so miss my secondary school...now in utar ..also dont know that taking Acturial science is the right way or not.. during this economic cirsis.. i believe that actuarial student wont get a good job after our graduation.. so .. is that still worth for us to take the SOA paper? or we should switch to CFA?

ok, seem i stil blur.. just take time to consider...as i want to go oversea.. i want to prove that i can do what i dream..must must ...

1 dare to think
2 dare to talk
3 dare to do
4 dare to fail
5 dare to continue

6 u reserve what you do....

winner or loser...

your attitude will determine your habbit
your habbit determine your behaviour
your behaviour determine your future..

so try to be an eagle which fly..not a chicken..

winner will alway find solution from question;
loser will always find question from solution.

winner will seek for solution ;
loser will create many reason.

wish to have and must have is different..
you wish to have so you will create reason...
you must to have so you will find solution..

so it is a must for me to be an eagle...
very motivating ING talk... among AIA ,ING ,OCBC
erm...OCBC seem provide the most stable way... ING provide
the attractive return...AIA. provide the normal range.. so
i choose......haha... take time

9 of February

By this moment and this second, i am still alone..but my heart is warm and calm. I have my own determination and dream. And this time i will realize it if no any undesirable incident. yeah! very confident now as now i no need to worry so much about my financial. This doesn's means that i am rich, just can relax for a short while..

Hello, many of my S3ST friend, sorry for not joining you all during CNY. I am really not ready for it yet.. haha, maybe in few more months, after i get my first achievement, i will automatically to find you guys or gals out... hope you all still in Malaysia..haha..

here, i should thanks alot to mr Sia Boon Hong.. i think he is the looping stone to lead me.. maybe he not listen.. but who read my blog and know him..please pass my thanks to him..

Later, erm in this CNY, i have done quite a lot of thing.. finally i got time to spend with my parents. Visited almost all famous temple in Penisular Malaysia. but i am not a Buddhist. haha..

Yoyo, then my study really drop lo.. no more first class honour.. luckily my course is based on professional paper, first class or not doesn't matter..hope in this ox year, it will really create luck to me...CNY over, is time to fight back my result..wahaha..

With my Utar friend, still not so close, haha because i really got no time to play.. maybe soon la...hehe.. and quite bad.. just be playful only... then annoyed a coursemate pula... i just send sms to play play with her only... haiz .. make me no car to back now...haha.. hope i can fix it soon...

Erm ..then with my current love life, no news at all, just striving..hope time can change everything..haha..

Then about my workmates, sorry la.. i want to join.. but just because of she dont want to see me.. then paiseh lo.. haha..

My partime career.. demo power , K employment, home tuition, direct sale.... OCBC soon gua...

Just so few things i did..much fight and go to learn more thing now...20 july 2012.... + oil.....

Please comment on me.....

1) Am i a person who is very annoying?
someone say i am very annoying recently...i just want to play fun and make everyone laugh
2) Is infatuatued to someone is a kind of stupid action?
some people comment that it is a kind of suiciding... is that really so serious?
3) Is that necessary to be rich to get what you want?
No...even with money i cant buy her love... but other....
4) What is your point of view about me now?
i look like nerd...money face...cruel..no mercy for some people
5) Am i a bad guy?
i admit i am not.. but dont know how other think
6) How to make people understand what you want to say and not misunderstanding?
That is what i always do now..always make people misunderstanding..why they cant understand what i want to mean...
7) How to avoid irritate people?
erm i dont know actualy..but i already treat people sincerely...


anyone can teach me how? haha..

SELF CHECKING!!

THINKING- 90% of the time keep thinking.. duno wat.
RATIONALITY- 80% already controled by emotional feeling
CALM- temper became bad and not stable recently 60%
DETERMINATION- 100% the desire to climb to the top of life become stronger
LOYALTHY- 50% loyal to anything? is that worth?
MORAL- 50% what is real moral? the winner ?
CONSISTENCY- 100% people say cant .. it doesnt means anything...
LOVE- 100% still same same.. wont change ...but just become low profile
LOGICAL- 50% lost objective way of analisys during this period. trying to remedy

step / solution

1) Determine new target.. not only for future .. but also for self-satisfaction
2) not to stuborn... let my feeling to decide sometime.. even it may not sound good .. but at least mke me feel better
3) keep compete and compare... that is one of the best way to make yourself stronger..
4) aim for the effect....not affect.. if you have good outcome.. people wont care about the process..

5) just let it be natural. not put 100% hope.. life is full of changement...

UTAR!!

What is my future now? Suddenly lose so many ... i now my dream.. car house gf is for the future... but ..America dream.. i never forget.. how can i go there....just base on SOA? How hard will it be? Duno oso.... i should plan carefully now.. if not i sure regret...20 of July 2012... self target.. A dream. but what action should i take? it is really hard to figure it out..

anyone who know the path to go America.. for whatever(not for vacation) at least find a job or what what . oso can la.. tqtqtq

SORRY lae peng!!!!

i dont know who will read this article .. but here i just want to say sorry to someone... here is what going on at this morning....

This morning i have done one of the worst thing in my current life... i frightened a girl that i like.. today ... i went to go UTAR at the morning. so happy because i am going to start my new life...

think i will meet her at the bus terminal.. unfortunately fail.. so i just take the bus..headed to pj UTAR. Maybe the god bless me or what, i met her at the bustop and she alone ( not together with her friend today). So naturally i go and approach her .. try to talk to something to her. hate myself liao la.. suddenly feel so nervous and cant even spoke out a words... same fault again for this few month..

Just because my class is start only at the afternoon, so i decided to follow her to PC block. Aiyo, a guy follow a girl , without saying anything, sure the girl will afraid.. haiz.. why i will do such idiotic thing.. feel very guilty now.. haiz... luckily she told me directly that i look terible.. sorry la... nextime i wont do like that again.. crazy. .why can suddenly cant talk d.. yesterday ming ming nothing d la.. haiz.. maybe just i and her today only.. become a dumb pula..haha

sorry again la.. i promise that wont be a second time..

Destination!!

hei , dude where do you want to go?
yes man, i just want to go some place.

oh, what place you are going now?
erm, i am not so sure also ..

ah? can you explain it further?
it is a place i dream for a long time..

then?
it is full of wonderful and happiness

after that ?
no worry no stress, just with the people i love

aiks, where got such place?
got , i show you how to go there.

that will be a good thing . listening..how ?
first, be equiped yourself with love and action..
second, try to defeat all your enemy...
finally , waiting patient and you will get what you dream..

Am i going to a war?
nope

sound like tackle a girl?
no also..

then what am i doing?
just act according to your feel

wah , still very blur .. explain further?
erm just defeat all your target...

example.. not understand...?
Rayson..Eric...tyj...

sound like car name?
yes.. that is....

how leh?
just use your brain...

okok when can i complete?
when you think everything is ok .. then act and you wil success

who are you ?
i am you ...

who am i ..?
you are me..

why i shoud act but not you?
because you are yong long.. i am just spirit yong....wahaha

blur?
me either..

NEW YEAR!!!

2009... new year... but my aspiration is the same.... i want to strive for my future... at the same time i mus learn how to enjoy now.. i already lose one year in binary... i should not waste my time on useless thing anymore... i am regret.. . quite regret...rgret of wat i had done in 2008... but wat can i do..useless....

this year...i bought a new digital camera...hope i can caught all the sweet memory inside it...now i mus learn how to be fierce...how to be strict...how to be no mercy to girl.... if not it is hard to be a leader...

secondly , i mus focus in my SOA exam.. i cant lost my degree lose my future.... unless i gt something unexpected..so climb up to the top step by step.. foot by foot.. the destination is still far away.. my stamina should be reproduce faster and faster...

thirdly, i mus try to forget love... with too many love sometime we cant do wat we like and forced to change my plan.... i lost one year. i can lose anymore.. cos i noe even finally i wont get anything if i jus keep waiting..i mus act to achieve not wait to get....


wish all my dream come true step by step Cxx Hxxxxx Axxxxx Txx xxx xxxx