CANT HELP

She cant help me.. she ignore me..she try to escape from me..yet she still contact to me..but not clearly..so wat tis all resemble? If i dont like something.. sure i will dicuss all the thing face to face and make it clear enough..

Cant help.. no ppl will help you if you are unable to complete a task.. they wont give you a hand if you have no useful value for them.. how can u help urself if you cant help urself..?

now i really cannot differentiate what to do in my next plan.. should i change the ways i handle things? Or remain with the same mehtod until everything show a sequence..?

ok!! i will let my feeling and intuition to decide!!

24 hours no enough!!

6.00am : wake up and prepare myself
6.30am : headed to terminal to take bus
6.45am : waiting for her or jus taking the bus
7.45am : reach utar and study
2.00pm : finally finish study and home
3.45pm : after a few hard work , in my "bird nest " finally
4.00pm : take a nap, including sms makan ...
5.30pm : wake up , have a fast scan through every mail, blog, face book...
6.30pm : taking dinner ,bath
7.30pm: prepare for my tuition career, must teach my student something at least
8.20pm : going to teach tuition
9.45pm : home finally taking supper
10.30pm: online again chatting, searh for GK
12.00am: wah so late liao ,, havent do tutorial faster do....

hei how about prepare for exam?? haha..

1.00am :zzzz
one day 5 hours zzzz..no enough for me..haizzzz

PTPTN hope again!!

Again my ptptn application is being rejected. however, this time the officer admit that it is their fault and agreed to reprosess my application. That is not i want actually, i just wish that i could take the loan and my partime income is not as stable as i thought. So i really need the loan in case something undesirable happen.

Actually PTPTN could be considered as my crucial key to continue all my plan. First is my plan to start own career(maybe a small business) secondly is the way to find my beloved. No girl will like a beggar. if u really wish to have a girl friend, make sure at least u can earn...thirdly is backup for my future..

The journey to be a actuary is not as easy as i thought , it is something hard and not everyone can make it. I have the confidence, but not the ability. Instead i really fail in the middle, ptptn will assist me in other ways.. but my dream will never vanish!!20th of july 2012!! not signifacant but meaningful and agreement!

Here is wat i do this few days,, morning wait at terminal and wish to accompany her to utar..later study with wish but not spirit.. coming back with tired body and take a nap if there is posssible.. night tuition again..just like partime to cover my daily expenses. STUDY,MONEY,LOVE. all i want.. but can i do it? nobody know..

Feeling what?if problem occur?

Recently i had discover obstacles again in my life.. ptptn fail.. love journey might not get good response.. SOA paper is hard to pass.. however this time i feel happy and could look at it easily as i think myself become more independent..really as i am not nervous of doing something...haha
that is advise of my friend which really make me concious..never regret if u do something wrong.. if u do regret ..u will live in regret .. if u want correction... then u can get more and make the stituation a different..

first my ptptn failure will ease my normal planning to purchase car. however i think tat is not a matter as i could still implement my plan but just take a longer time.. tis is positively thinking method..

second is my love.. this is my first time love with real action.. i really serious about it.. i dont might take a long period.. as i know what is really suitable for a couple.. time and tolerant is really crucial and it is the vital point for the success...

third is my SOA.. it is my only way( until today la.. future dont know yet) to pursuit my dream to America..such a wild idea .. together with my bosom friend.. sure those who know me know who is she .. haha..i will try my best to pass it as i dont want to waste any money..

An unforgotable day

Yesterday was 7th of August, in chinese calender, it is 7th of JUly.. which is considered as reunion day for a pair of couple who love each other.. i had give her a present that day oso.. miss Tan , i dunno u know the meaning of the bracelet or not.. but i jus want to care about u..

This is my first time to give such present to a girl.. i havent tackle a girl before, and havent girl friend before.. but this time i dun want to waste any opportunity anymore.. it is easy to find girl who are beautiful.. to find girl who is beautiful and good in personality..it is really hard....

so i decide to let my heart to decide .. so only she will be able to give me those feeling of love.. it is comfortable even jus be near to her only..happy even jus have a look at her...miss her even not c her for a few days.. so i hope my braclet will give her healthy and happyness...hope she will enjoy it...

OMG! nt going to kampar! but might go to Setapak!!

From Kampar to Setapak.. it do not sound good.. both place are not suitable for me.. at least for now.. however Setapak is still better than Kampar la.. but it is still creating a lot of inconvenience to me.. for example, the living cost, whether want remain at klang or move into Kampar? Too many issue to cover..if not i will definitely remain at klang.. for many purposes..

For me, Utar is just a temporary place for me to upgrade myself.. my final vision is oversea.. that sound still a very far way from me.. it is true that we should go outside world and see when we are young!! so i would like say it is good to have a trip to other country..however now i still couldn't see any bright future infront of me!!

America, are man end reading idiot comic already? ya it is ...