unhappy...

Now i become more approaching graduation ,feel like being dumped into a big deep hole. cant tolerate with my passive emotion and let them mastered my mind just with no fight back. Jesus born in Mafia will become gangster when he grown up.. that is how environment influence a person.. only one thing is struggle me now .. that is $$ .. maybe some argument like i am eventually a miser or greedy man.. but i know it very well.. i'm not! i just a guy who eager for better life without worrying about financial problem.

i cant say that i am not a positive person .. just merely behave positive, that why i still being able to study and work... so i am happy and grateful actually.. wahaha... just to release unhappy feeling to let my self-recover system operate again....@_@

What to do?

Just knew that my result drop to 1.5.. ... next semester onward no more ptptn loan.. haiz.. this time really need to earn depend myself... why my result will drop so obviously ? actually no buddy to be blamed.. just no motivation enough.. haiz..

So what can i do now? might can graduated on time gua.. just money problem... wahaha.. will I being defeated this time ? dun know , my life is full of challenge.. my life is really hard.. why I cant enjoy easiness? Nevermind.. start now, really cannot waste a single minutes..

Stressful , painful , all negative feeling fulfil my heart, but.. as my idiom, attitude will change u .. remember.. must have good attitude, process is not important , the result everything... now i still in the process.....

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