爱情vs家庭？？

最近事业慢慢稳定了。。开始计划未来。。
我想找个伴侣了
到底我是要爱情，还是要一个家庭罢了？

我想了很久很久。。我还是忠于自己的答案。我要一个家。。当然家里的女主人必需是我能接受，能爱一辈子的。

原来符合我的条件的人很多，
可是谁能够真正爱我？？

原来人生追求的简单，有时一点也不简单。。

老天爷啊。。我只要简单的家庭爱情。。

你能帮我实现吗？

unhappy...

Now i become more approaching graduation ,feel like being dumped into a big deep hole. cant tolerate with my passive emotion and let them mastered my mind just with no fight back. Jesus born in Mafia will become gangster when he grown up.. that is how environment influence a person.. only one thing is struggle me now .. that is $$ .. maybe some argument like i am eventually a miser or greedy man.. but i know it very well.. i'm not! i just a guy who eager for better life without worrying about financial problem.

i cant say that i am not a positive person .. just merely behave positive, that why i still being able to study and work... so i am happy and grateful actually.. wahaha... just to release unhappy feeling to let my self-recover system operate again....@_@

What to do?

Just knew that my result drop to 1.5.. ... next semester onward no more ptptn loan.. haiz.. this time really need to earn depend myself... why my result will drop so obviously ? actually no buddy to be blamed.. just no motivation enough.. haiz..

So what can i do now? might can graduated on time gua.. just money problem... wahaha.. will I being defeated this time ? dun know , my life is full of challenge.. my life is really hard.. why I cant enjoy easiness? Nevermind.. start now, really cannot waste a single minutes..

Stressful , painful , all negative feeling fulfil my heart, but.. as my idiom, attitude will change u .. remember.. must have good attitude, process is not important , the result everything... now i still in the process.....

+U

Dont think i am foolish..

this semester i result drop like hell.. now i already understand the feeling of people whose result are not so good... actually it just like feeling of temporary only.. just like you taking an injection., ouch it is pain from skin to heart.. but after that you will be fine again...

this semester my concentration and memorizing ability gone away.. cant concentrate in class .. like day dreaming...haiz... no wonder cant do many things...

this semester i am over kind.. i help people, treat people, but dont think i am foolish .. so bad.. when you are kind.. people like to take opportunity on you.. but once is once. i wont be foolished..now i find that realistic people is sometime good...

A kind people always bullied.. so be smart.. i wrote here because i think not many people will read my blog... haha. now i still owe few people something.. that is some of my secondary friend...without them i cant enjoy many fun during my last year in HIn HUA.. i will repay them in term of other .. not monetary.. as it is more precious..

Inside my life until now.. there are two girl. except my mum la.. haha.. they make me so suffer and down but it is over.lesson is to make me grow.. i wont angry but motivated. first is tsw. . that happen during my secondary school... i feel nervous when talk and look at this gal.. i assume it is love , so i am too passive and too rush.. now she totally dislike me.. even not contact with me..but i realize now i am not loving her..just like her .. i think.. because i nervous but i wont care her..

until 2007.. tlp.. a girl who make me really care and sacrifice my one year in binary.. haha... (if not i will graduated in next 2 month..) again. i am too high profile.. make her total alienated me now.. haha. but ok la.. at least stil can contact... 2 cases. almost the same type.. but why response is different.. the answer is the family background..

here i just express my feeling ..not hurting or criticizing anyone or anyside..

guys from upper level of family usually are proud of them selves, if they find that the background with their friend exist a big gap.. then they wont mix with them..

guys from lower level of family are easier to communicate..they wont so " lan si " or not friendly..because they now relation is quite important. ..

of course there are counter example among my assumpti0m.. some of my friends are also rich.. but they are friendly also.. but most of the people i meet la..haha.. nextime ba.. take time to complain.. haha ..

Finance or Insurance.....

Now inside my mind.. very very blur.. i should continue on financial career or insurance career?


SOA PAPER OR CFP... PAPER??

I Know after i take SOA , if passed , it would be very high significant. . but is that really can earn alot? that make me stun now.. i am not sure that i would let myself stay in the office for the whole day, dealing with some paperwork... calculation.. i think i cant stand for it.. so i really doubt whether SOA career suit me or not.. for interest ,, sure good, because i really like to count...
but . for monetary purpose.. it is not so p0sitive... so thinking.. the pitch would be on 9 of July. . if i fail in the exam . then i would be really sure that .. acturial field is not my bowl of rice... i will be really sure that .. i need an alternative .. so .. after 9th of JULY , i can tell everyone what am i doing now.. hehe .. hope that day faster come and pass..

Return... From sabah...

After a 5 days trip , i find that my pocket going to empty.. really first time expense so many in my life time

18th may- i reached lcct at night side wait till 5 am only got flight.. doing nothing just go to Tune Hotel online. . later .. the flight is on... first time take a flight .. so excited and the feel also strange..

when reached Sabah.. so hungry..go to eat Char xiu rice. wah so expensive rm6. then i realize that new few days i will having such life..then we go to an island and snorkeling.. am i considered snorkelling oso ? maybe gua.. later we back to Tune hotel and ate mamak at night. so fast one day ll..

19th may- yes go climb kk mountain.. manage to reach 4 km.. cannot up somemore cos need time and $ .. climb mountain is so easy for me.. haha. so proud.. when go down .. i use run down the mountain.. can imagine? this technique i learn from my coursemate princeton.. he jump so fast i also follow his step and jump down lol.. really can use " jump down " technique when u down kk mountain.. 1 hour `15 minutes can reach bottom .. very easy.. very satisfied today..

eventhough tired..

20th may- headed to sandakan.. waste half day . lucky still can try local food wan tan mee.. so luxury the food.. yummy..at night side .. to makan " sea food" normal type.. haha.. at nite site.. we go beachside yam cha.. finally see a gal who consider " ok" in sabah.. walao..sabah really few few rare rare leng lui...

21 th may- go eat local food .. " pei tan gao" . later go see orang hutan.. then go temple.. then back lol. another half day in car...

22th may- eat last breakfast at sabah... then go to airport...

the largest gain in my sabah trip manage to go kk mountain.. the largest lost in my trip..

i lost my digital camera... so sadddss all my memory passed with that camera.. is time to change really... not worth not worth..

love?

A man will pay 2$ for a 1$ item that he needs.
A woman will pay 1$ for a 2$ item that she doesn't need.
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting she won't change, and she does.

have a fun time.....